home isn't a house, but a feeling

hey hi hello
is everything okay?
nope, as always.


Love- the most basic definition is to lust happiness for another person we love. Word "love" can refer to many things, states or attitudes, inter alia strong interpersonal bound. There are many kinds of love. We're using word "love" to describe many things, that it's why is so hard to describe. Psychologists stand for few types of love. One of them is Eros (Amor) - creative or romantic love, in which the dominant is nostalgia, enchantment, sentiment or desire.

what do I feel for you, huh?
why you had to write to me?
why you had to notice that I exist, say "hello, how are you?" and then just look, sometimes say "hi" and nothing more?

i wanna hold you
i wanna kiss you
you smell of daisies, you smell of daisies
you drive me crazy, you drive me crazy

You'll feel the biggest absence of someone you love, when He's sitting next to you and you know that He'll never be yours

.

hahahah, concert  was great, maybe it didn't went how i thought it will, but i've had fun.
gosh, i would like to get know some people better, they all seem so good ;)
18 days till Italy!







don't be such a stone cold.
show off some feelings.
i love you and the way you act is breaking my heart

i don't have the strenght to play in love

NO, NO, NO
NO is NO
i say NO, when i think NO
why you then read "no"
like "no" means "yes"?!
stop to knock.
i won't let you in.
my whole body's aching.
sleep came late.
and it was bad.
i don't have the strenght to play in love.

the future seemed so bright

everything should be right now, shouldn't it?
we supposed to sort things out today.
another arguement.
first tears.
can we fix it?
should we give our relationship one more chance?
i don't know.
you answer me.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MdXF5LD1BOk

the lesson learned was so hard to swallow

it all seemed so perfect, so why did we actually had this arguement?
about what? the truth?
someone has to slow down with interfering into mine relationship.
guys, only 3 days left!!!
UHO VAN GOGHA I ALCOMMANDO, DZIWKO!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWYz-CYv2Zg
<3

life is beautiful

i have all the answers.
i pass the year.
i'm in love, now i know it for sure.
tomorrow Tom's birthday.
concert on Wednesday
but, the most of all: HOLIDAYS!
i'm not proud of me.
of my lies, my grades..
but i have to live with it.
take life one day at a time.
12th of July: Rimini, Rome, San Marino, Vatican City, Venice, bitch!

i know, i know for sure
that life is beautiful around the world
i know, I know it's youyou say hello and then I say I do




be patient, please.
don't be my friend only.
i love you.

it doesn't feel like summer

it totally doesn't feel like summer.
i have a wonderful idea how to deal with my grades, but at first, i need to get E from Math, God, im begging you, let Bożenka be clement!
last week of school, yay!
i need to slow down, with everything
im not sure about my feelings for one person and it's worrying my mind.
but i have you, M. 
i love you as you would have been my sister
i love your second earring hole as it would has been mine.
there's nothing i could do without you
and all  i want to say to you is big, big THANK YOU, sweetheart.
i hope we'll get through another year, as best friends.
i don't want to lose you, never ever.
i love you

coming back after break

well, i can't believe how much my life has changed this year.
people who i thought were my best friends are false
i still have a contact with one, but it's not close - never was and never will.
the second one - we didn't talk since.. november? yep.
my best friend since december is a person that i hated, what a paradox. 
what's happening in my life now?
i have a person that i am with, but im not completely sure about this relationship.
i don't know why. sometimes i have a feeling like "OMG, I LOVE HIM SO MUCH", but sometimes is "HMM, DO I WANT THIS FOR SURE?".
very important person from my past came back to my life. i'm happy about it.
i don't know if i will pass Maths this year. so creepy.
D from Polish? it must be a joke.
im undeniably exhausted. waiting for summer.
Italy, Wroclaw, my boyfriend, friends i MELANŻ i MELANŻ, hej!
but i totally don't feel like summer.

i know that probably no one's reading this, but i feel much better when i write.

talk to me because
i want to eat your words
talk to me because
it's how i become the sweetest
and peach mousse from your lips fills me 
like moon again
hot fullness
talk naughtily 
and touch here with tip of your finger
dangerously want to 
suck me under the water
don't be scared
hunger will attract us today
read me like a menu
freely
tip
pinch
bite 
lick 
mousse from your lips
me saute